♥ New Baby

♥ Me 

It's 4.25am in the morning now.

So it's Sunday. 

Meaning uni starts tomorrow. sigh

After this, I really think I will abandon my blog again! Hah

Well, actually I wanted to blog because I'm just too down today.

Out of sudden, I realised I practice really poor English.

Yes of course, to a number of people, my English might be acceptably good.

However, god damn I hate myself.

Yes, I can write. 

I have minimal or maybe close to zero problem with grammars.

But my vocabulary is horrible. 

I cannot write with fancy words etc, let along speak! 

I still write like a kid (although a lot better than I used to be) when I'm already 21!

How pathetic! 

I've thought of writing my blog post with Chinese but, I can't write in Chinese! 

My Chinese is even worse! 

I'm good in nothing!

Sometimes, even in Chinese, I couldn't tell what I wanted to say/present.

I wish I could just throw my brain to the person I'm talking to and let them read my mind themselves. LOL

I can speak pretty good Hokkien but I cannot write at all. 

I used to be quite good in Malay, now I suck at it!

Very horrible! 

Whenever I speak to Malays, I just, just, C A N ' T ! 

I only know Bang, roti satu! 

Or, or kurang manis. 

Or, or tak mau ini, tak mau itu, etc. 

This post is all about complaints, bare with me. ><

I found out why am I so low in self esteem, all the time.

Because I judge, I judge people. 

Just the other I told JJ that someone writes with really horrible English, I just couldn't stand! Agh

But, who am I to judge, right?

I judge people so much that, I start judging myself too.

Pointing out all my flaws.

Even tiny ones.

I feel rotten all the time. 

I'm evil and ugly. 

I'm ugly from the inside out! T.T

I can't stop judging people. Sorry

If I stop judging, I think I'm just pretending. LOL

I'm such a biatch! 

Apparently, I do not judge any of my friends. 

To me, they are all too perfect. :)

Honestly. 

Their cons are all concealed or replaced by their pros. 

So zero flaw! 

In few hours, I'm supposed to meet up with Bea. 

But she didn't tell me the time. 

Pray hard I could wake up in the morning. 

My sleeping early plan failed to the max. 

♥ New Baby

Yup, new laptop.

My old crappy laptop is just too old.

It shuts down automatically, due to overheating.

Battery not working anymore.

Laptop runs with excessive noise!

Laptop shouldn't have noise isn't?! 

Mine does! Horrible! 

I couldn't stand it anymore. 

Plus, Windows are just too sucky. 

Influenced by my friends, maybe.

Plus, they did proved to me how horrible Windows are! 

No offense :P

This will be the last post I post with my old lappie.

My new baby is still charging. 

Apple is so convenient, I can get PPS right from the app store.

Fast and easy. 

Now I can watch my TVB Dramas from there! :)

Actually I was waiting for the new 13 inch MacBook Pro with retina display thingy.

I thought that the one I bought was the one.

Because mine is the latest version which launched a month ago.

Obviously, it is not.

Sigh. Bit regret.

But, never mind. 

I don't think my crappy laptop can last me till October either. 

God, it's already 5am. 

Gotta run!

Nights~ 

PS: Please forgive my crappy English. Aligato